I’ve been doing both a bunch lately and I keep blurring the lines between something that could be inner-inner monologue vs inner-outer monologue. I think a blog like this needs to have more content that probes deeper than surface level, both for me developing as Dawn as well as others who (hopefully) stumble across my scribbles. For me, I get to explore and experience myself. For others, they get to see me for who I am as well as maybe see a bit of themselves.

That was the hardest part growing up, not being able to see other people like me, except maybe in a film or a book where they were portrayed as a monster, a scapegoat, or just a splash of non-cishet life that could be exploited for a laugh or a jump-scare.

I hope I’ll have more content soon that will explore these feelings. I’m figuring it out myself too as I go. I hope you enjoy the journal too.